Day 13: Wrong, Wrong, Wrong

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Today is the 13th day of NaNoWriMo (national novel writing month) and I am writing a novel this month.

Problem is…

The way I’ve patterned the chapters…wrong.

A few of the characters…wrong.

One character dies…wrong.

One character has an ailment that I got all…wait for it…wrong.

Certain aspects of plot…wrong.

Wrong. Wrong. Wrong.

Shoot.

And 45,000 words into the first draft.

And I’m going to keep writing the wrong. Yup. I’m going to let myself soak in the wrong.

Why?

Because I have to know what’s wrong before I can know what is right.

Right around 1938 (no, this isn’t a story about me…I’m not that old) John Steinbeck (swoon) finished work on a satire called L’Affaire Lettuceburg. He called it a “bad book”. It wasn’t what it should have been. Undoubtedly, it was well written and full of wit and great ideas. But it wasn’t what he wanted to present to the world.

Instead, he used what he had and constructed a different project out of the Lettuceburg compost. That work later became a little book that you were probably supposed to read in High School English. It was called The Grapes of Wrath.

Steinbeck didn’t see what was wrong as a failure. Instead, he noticed the wrong and improved upon it.

Wrong. Wrong. Wrong. Soon becomes. Better. Better. Better.

And that’s what I’m going for.

I’m not Steinbeck…but…maybe I want to be a little bit.

Whoa.

Well, it’s true.

Like Steinbeck but not so hairy.

Or Communist.

Or womanizing.

Hm.

(DISCLAIMER: I’m not functioning on 100% brain capacity. Most of my mind is going into the wrongness of the novel. Thank you, Cupcakes!)

Until We All Come Home — a review and give-away

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I met Kim de Blecourt at a luncheon last year. She sat next to me, jet lagged and saying something about adopting from Ukraine. I smiled and nodded, having absolutely no idea of her story.

Then I heard little bits and pieces. She had some trouble over there. Had to stay for a long time. Legal trouble. Things like that. But I still had no idea.

Then, I read her book. Until We All Come Home is a heart pounding read. Throughout the read, I had to remind myself that this was her story, not a novel. One reviewer of her book compared the book to reading a spy novel. I think that’s an accurate comparison.

More than the intrigue and action and suspense, what caught my heart in this book was the raw honesty with which Kim told her story. She didn’t make herself look like a patient saint. She didn’t play the “martyr card”. Rather, she wrote honestly about her fear and anger and doubts. She even wrote about a time she lost her temper with her husband and admitted that it wasn’t fair. I kept thinking about if I would be so transparent in this kind of story. It’s a risk. Usually, in these kinds of books, the writer smooths over the blemishes and sugars up their attitudes. Not in this one.

Here’s the reason she did that; she wanted there to be absolutely no doubt that the happy ending of this book was not linked to her goodness or glory or strength of faith. Kim wanted to point directly to the provision and protection and goodness of God who worked every day in her life to bring her home…with her son.

This month is National Adoption Month. I’m pleased to endorse Kim’s book and her ministry, Nourished Hearts (a ministry to the families who adopt and to feed orphans around the world).

Allow me to toot another horn here, Kim isn’t keeping any of the money from the sale of her book. Every penny is going to feed orphans. The sale of each book feeds 9 children in orphanages in other nations. Read more about Food For Orphans HERE.

I’m happy to have a copy of Until We All Come Home here on my desk that is just waiting to be given away (Thank you, Kim)! All you need to do is leave a comment below to be entered.

Thanks for stopping by! Check back on Wednesday to find out who won the book!

*Note: I was given a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review. 

Day 9: Writing the Blues

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I’ve hit some really emotionally taxing chapters over the past few days.

I may or may not have cried a tiny bit whilst writing.

These scenes are difficult to write. They pull so much out of me, making me feel incredibly vulnerable.

So, the writing has slowed down a bit. Fortunately, I’m still ahead. Close to 34,000 words.

Thanks, friends, for your encouragement. It truly props me up.

*watch for Monday’s post for a book give-away*

What’s Your Story — Guest Post With Kendra Shriver

Today, we welcome Kendra Shriver. Kendra is a blogger, a home-schooling mom, a wife, and a dear friend of mine. I love Kendra and you will too after you read this post. In order to protect her children’s identities, Kendra refers to her sweet ones as Dynamite and Cindy Lou Who. 

Feel free to visit Kendra at www.thejoyofsneezing.blogspot.com

Why I Shouldn’t Have Taken Dynamite to Staples

All I wanted were two very simple student planners.  No frills–just something to write down my kids’ individual assignments in.  After church, I ask my dear husband, “Do you mind if I just shoot over to Staples for a few minutes?  I just need to run in really quick.”
Then Dynamite and Cindy-Lou Who chime in, “We want to go too!  Can we go too?”
“Okay,” I say, “that’s fine.  But it’s just going to be a quick trip.  In and out.”
Like that would ever happen…
Two minutes into my perusing the clearance rack for some discounted planners, I notice Cindy Lou Who doing the pee-pee dance.
“Do you need to use the bathroom?”  I ask.
“The very tiniest bit, Mom” she says holding up her index finger and thumb to give me a visual.
“Mm-hmmm.”
Now to find a bathroom.  We find a store employee and are pointed to the bathroom.
“Okay, just go potty and I’ll wait out here for you,” I tell her.
Now, here is where the story twists.  That’s right, my friends.  In just a moment, it can all fall apart.
“I have to go potty too!!” Dynamite chimes in.
Oh man.  This is the kid whose butt is so little, he has to scoot all the way back on the toilet seat so he doesn’t fall in.  This is the kid who still hasn’t mastered the art of aiming and leaves “art work” for me to find on my shower curtain.
There’s no, “Just go in and come out” anymore.  That ship has sailed.  So, the three of us trudge into the bathroom.
It smells like…well, poop.  There you have it.  It totally smells like poop.
The toilet is splattered and disgusting and I really don’t want my kids sitting on it.  I get out my all-purpose baby wipes and meticulously wipe the seat.  Then, I lay out strands of toilet paper for the child who only needs to go to the bathroom the tiniest bit, but is doing this amazing number that reminds me of Lord of the Dance.
As I’m trying to do damage control, Dynamite says what we’re all thinking (but not really):
“It smells wike pwetzels in here or sumping.”  Probably not the first thing I would analogize the smell to, but I guess pretzels do have a different kind of smell sometimes.
As he’s doing what he needs to do, I can be overheard saying, “Point your peeper down.  Dynamite, do not pee on your underwear.  Make sure it’s pointed down.”
He’s agreeable and understands, I’m quite certain, that mommy is just doing a very quick in and out trip to the office supply.  He totally gets it that I just need two freaking little notebooks that would’ve taken me five-minutes tops if I had only come alone.
“Um, I fink my undapants are wet,” he says as he’s getting off the toilet-paper lined seat.
“Seriously?”
“I fink so.”
Now, perhaps any good mother would’ve said, “Okay, let’s go home right this minute.  We need to change your clothes.”
But I didn’t.  Because sometimes I’m not a good mother.  Sometimes I’m a very utilitarian kind of mother.  And I really needed two measly little notebooks and I was out with only two kids instead of four.
So I said, “Okay, I don’t think they’re that wet.  Let mommy just find these (insert naughty word that I said in my head so only I could hear it and prayed later that God would cleanse my heart and help me stop thinking those naughty words when I’m frustrated) notebooks.”
Dynamite walks around pinching the seam of his pants and pulling it out so it doesn’t touch his rear end.
“My pants is wet, Mom.”
I’m beginning to think they’re a little more wet than I realized.
I grab some cute stripey paper-clips as a consolation that I am not getting my notebooks, but at least I will have gotten something that I needed (read: helped ease my feelings of defeat).
And that is why, next time, I will leave Dynamite and Cindy-Lou Who at home when I need to get two little things at Staples.

Quick Thought About November 7, 2012

Yesterday President Barack Obama won his bid for re-election (in case you didn’t follow along).

Now, I’m not going to give you my opinion about that. And I’d rather you not give me your opinion either. It will accomplish nothing.

However, I made an observation while watching the Facebook news feed. Some people are elated over this election result. Others are devastated.

Of those who are devastated, I noticed the word “fear” is prominent. A few others seem a tad bitter about the outcome.

Of those who are excited, they use the word “hope”.

I say this without judgement or condemnation. Just as an observation.

Fear doesn’t work. Bitterness doesn’t work. Putting our hope at the feet of a President doesn’t work.

You know what does work? Love.

So, today I encourage you to replace the fear and bitterness and misplaced hope with love. Do something for someone else. Bake some brownies for  your neighbor. Pay for the coffee for the guy in line behind you. Take a bag of groceries to a food bank. Love.

Remember why you love. For me, I love because I was first loved by Christ. And it is in His love that I put my hope. And it is in Him that I place my devotion and allegiance.

So, today, November 7, 2012 I have decided I will love intentionally and with a purpose.

I hope that you will give it a try.

Much love and peace to you today.

Day 6: I Vote For…

…Chocolate. And coffee. Mix them together if you want. That’s fine by me.

What? Did you really think I was going to tell you who I voted for? No way, Buddy. I like to keep my politics hush, hush. I don’t get to keep many secrets to myself.

One thing that I will tell you, though, is that today’s writing was tough. So far, only a little over 2,000 words.

Did I hit the wall? Not really. Although I’ve been known to run into them every once in awhile (I’m clumsy and absent minded).

Did I run out of ideas? Totally not. I’ve got lots of novel left to write.

Then what happened?

A really emotional scene, that’s what. A full chapter of story that made me feel like someone had taken a Brillo pad to my heart.

Ouch.

And here’s the other painful thing about that chapter; I will most likely edit the whole thing out. Most, if not all, of the words will go the way of muffin cups. Used to hold the badder together and then tossed in the trash when no longer needed.

Wow. That was bad. But I’m keeping it. Because I’m too tired to think of something else to say.

Anyway. If I knew that I was going to toss it, why did I write it? Because I needed to develop a character and a situation. I couldn’t have done that without writing a few thousand words. Later, after I cut and cut and cut that thing, I’ll have a more concrete plan for that scene. I’ll write something slightly better (which will also need to endure a good edit).

All right, Friends. I’m back to the novel.

Thank you for cheering me on. You all mean so much to me.

Here I go.

But first, a little coffee. And chocolate.

 

Day 3: Sugar

Today is the third day of National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo). You can read a little more about it here.

This morning, I realized the beauty of scheduling a write-your-novel-in-a-month for November. It is ever so “conveniently” right after Halloween. Candy is super cheap after Halloween. Sugar is a great way to kick start your brain…

What?

No?

Sugar isn’t good for the old cranium?

Ah, pooh.

Well, candy is still good.

 

Daily NaNoWriMo update: 13,132 words. 17 chapters. And all with reasonable amounts of sleep and without an overdose of coffee.

Watch next week for a book give-away (not NaNoWriMo related) and more word count updates!

Day 2: Phases of Writing Crazy

Just for you…a look into the insanity of writing a novel in a month.

It really isn’t looking so good. Waking up hurts.
Then your awesome neighbor brings coffee. Joy and sunshine abounds.

At some point, you stop mid-sentence and wonder what in the world you were trying to accomplish by writing this novel.
Inspiration comes along with that second cup of mud. You feel brilliant and smart and stuff (what? I’ve got to reserve the good words for the book)
Uh oh. The deadly afternoon lull. Looks like you need some more coffee.
Caffeine running through your veins, you’ve hit that second wind. Back to the elated writing.

You write and write and write until you realize the rest of your time zone is snoozing away. You determine to get in…just…one…more…word…zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
You wake up in the morning with keyboard imprints on your face.

I love my job.

By the way, almost 36 hours into NaNoWriMo and I’m at 6,371 words and still feeling good.

Thanks, everybody for your support. It means the world to me.

NaNoWriMo: Day 1

This month, I’m participating in NaNoWriMo. Read what that is and why I’m doing such a crazy thing HERE.

At midnight, NaNoWriMo started. At 12:16 am, I finished getting my notes and outlines together to start writing.

My word count is 2,854.

The thing that I need to remind myself after each paragraph is that I must not under any circumstance edit anything. I can save that for later. This is the hard thing for me.

Writers Cam: I’m feeling pretty good…seems the only problem is that I’m upside down. Hmm…

Watch for another update tomorrow! For now, I need to get more writing in. The kids are happy with their whiteboards. I need to use every minute I get!