The other day I looked at my computer and read something so very, very, VERY discouraging. These things happen. And they’ve happened to me more recently.
There’s just something about putting your work into the public that is vulnerable-making. Especially with this one reality:
Not Everybody’s Gonna Dig It.
My writing style isn’t for everyone. The books I’ve written aren’t 100% loved by all the readers in the world. In fact, I’m sure that out there is someone who sees me as a hack. Somebody who fell on this publishing novels thing due to some fluke.
That I’m not as good as another writer.
Guess what. They’re right. I’m no Shakespeare or Steinbeck (swoon). I’m not going to write as well as Austen or…well…the list could go on for a good long time.
I’m not the best writer in the whole world.
I’m learning to be okay with that.
What I’m not okay with is the feelings of inadequacy. That little voice in my head that says,
I HATE that little voice. Because it doesn’t stay quiet long. It crescendos until it’s no less than a scream. A banshee of discouragement. It makes my fingers seize up. My brain shuts down. Creativity cowers in the corner. Inspiration shrivels.
You’ve had that happen to you? Oh. Isn’t it good that we aren’t alone? Isn’t it refreshing?
Let’s be a different voice for each other. How does that sound? Let me get a sip of coffee. I’ve got something to share with you.
In fact, you’re better than good enough. You, my friend, are fearfully and wonderfully made. You were handcrafted in the Image of the most creative Artist and Author in all the world. And He’s promised to keep working on you to make you even better. Every single day.
And all of the good promises of God come true. He never goes back on them. He is honest.
Part of that constant work is that He helps you realize that good work that you were made to do.
Are you a teacher? An artist? Accountant (thank you for being an accountant. I would be in HUGE trouble without accountants)? What is it that you DO that makes you feel fully alive?
Do that. Teach. Create. Account (please account…or whatever it is you money geniuses call it). Put all your all into it. Do it as worship. Prayer. Life lived for God’s glory.
Banish the Banshee.
Seek out the Voice of the Good Shepherd who says,
Oh. And listen to the voices of those who speak His words. Those friends who encourage. Offer hugs. Speak truth in love (even when it stings a little or a lot).
Remember, not everybody’s gonna dig you or your work.
Because your Abba Father thinks you are pretty fantastic. And He loves you enough to keep making you even more of who you are meant to be.